I'm BAAAAAAAAACK!!!

So - after a month and a half hiatus - I'm back.  I have slacked off.  I have eaten garbage.  I have stopped running.  I feel like shit.  I'm glad I feel like shit though - because that is my biggest motivator!!  Today was my first day back.  I ate really cleanly - I even have 4 weight watchers points left over!  That doesn't even count my exercise points that I earned!  I jogged on the treadmill.  I only did 20 minutes - but it was better than I've done since Thanksgiving!  I am still getting over a bad cold - I thought my lungs were all better, but after my jog I was coughing like a person who has been smoking for 50 years!!  It was so hard to get my run in today - Susie has been as sick as a dog and she just wanted me to hold her all day long.  She cried the entire time I was running - that made me feel like a really shitty mom.  As soon as I finished I jumped right off the treadmill and scooped her up!!  I think I have a touch of whatever she has - I suspect I am getting a sinus infection.  My upper left tooth really hurts and I've had a root canal on it so there should be no pain at all.  Whenever I take a step, the jostling makes that tooth hurt even more.  Good Lord - I can't seem to get healthy!!

 I DID run my 10k.  It was SOOO hard and I felt like complete crap for the rest of the entire day.  I'm sure I pushed myself entirely too hard.  I think I'm going to start putting more treadmill training in.  I know I train harder on the treadmill - I keep a steady pace (no choice on a treadmill!).  I DEFINITELY need to get myself some new headphones though - today when I was running they kept falling out of my head.  VERY annoying!  

So what is new?  Not a whole heck of a lot.  I still don't know what is wrong with me.  The specialist took away my diagnosis of TN.  They basically tossed a prescription at me and sent me on my way.  I refuse to take medication when they don't even know what is wrong with me!  Thankfully I've been in a remission.  I have not had any pain- with a few brief exceptions - since early November!  YAY!  I am going to see an orthopedist though.  At first we all thought the pain in my index finger had something to do with TN but after an xray they have discovered abnormal spacing in my joint.  I have no idea what that even means.  It must not be THAT imperative, they can't get me in until January. 

Even though I have not been running, I have found a 5k that I plan on running on January 19th.  I'm pretty sure I can pull it off.  Worse case, I walk a little - no biggie.   I think having a race on the books keeps my training honest!

I'm going to cut it short tonight - I'm finding myself feeling very hungry right now.  I want to do something about it before it gets dangerous.  I'm thinking a baked potato.  That should fill me up and not be too bad on points.  Plus - I'm freezing right now, that will warm me up!

If you're still out there - thank you for reading!  I hope you have all had a WONDERFUL holiday!!!

-Monica