Monday, January 28, 2013

BIG NEWS!!!

I am OFFICIALLY not a diabetic anymore!  WHOO FREAKING WHOO!!!  I am SO EXCITED!!  I ALSO have a healthy cholesterol level!  Double awesome!  Here I was, thinking I had completely stalled - but my body was still improving!  YAY!

Aside from the complete awesomeness of my news from the doctor, my kids were absolutely freaking insane today.  Apparently my daughter thought she was Sir Edmond Hillary today, because she was climbing on EVERYTHING.  It was driving me insane.  I have started keeping the  chairs behind the gate on top of the treadmill because she has been pushing them up to the counter and getting into everything.  Today when I was cooking she got my water jug - which I had just filled.  She poured it onto the couch and the rug.  It holds 32 oz.  It was bad.  Then she got up onto the counter while I was cooking - I didn't see her do this.  She got a tomato and proceeded to squish it into the rug.  Oh MAN has it been a day around here.  Don't get me started on how many times she has said NO today.  Oh the terrible twos - you drive me batty!

I am kind of upset about something today.  This has been bothering me for some time but I have been trying to stay positive about it.  I just can't seem to keep my chin up about it today.  It seems like EVERYONE is faster than me.  EVERYONE.  Even people who have just started running.  I've been running for almost a year now.  My speed has not improved at all.  I have been trying to do the couch to 5k at a faster pace for a week now.  I can't even get day 1 down.  I have attempted day 1 four times.  I STILL can't do it.  I wanted to run a 10 minute mile by my birthday in June.  I just don't see it happening.  I wanted that goal SO BAD.  I KNOW I am getting healthier, so why am I not getting faster?  I am just so freaking frustrated.  I've noticed a correlation between my heart rate and my ability to go on.  In the beginning of an interval run, I'm fine.  I feel like I could run the 10 minute mile pace for an entire 5k.  After a few intervals of going fast and slow it takes less time for my heart rate to get high and more time for it to recover.  That is normal, I know that - but it seems that 170 is my max.  I can't seem to go very long once my heart hits 170.  Sorry, I am rambling.  I'm just really frustrated.  Today's run felt like a total failure because I couldn't finish the entire 20 minute interval session.  I walked the last three minutes.  I also cut two of the running intervals in half.  SO mad at myself.

Wow - this is a really bi polar sounding post - isn't it?  I really am in a good mood today - and I am feeling good from my run.  I'm just upset that I'm not where i wanted to be by now.

I hope everyone is having a wonderful day!  Thanks for reading! -Monica

7 comments:

  1. Everyone's ability is different. Don't beat yourself up about it...remember a 16 min/mile is still a mile and is better than sitting in the couch. :-)

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    1. This is true! I guess I just thought I'd be faster after a year - you know? Thank you though! I'll be ok! It's that time of the month, I tend to get down on myself a bit. LOL

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  2. ^^ what she said! Absolutely! Trust me when I say this.. I came in dead last on Saturday for my first 5K. My pace got slower each mile. Timing and pace will come later, I think endurance should be the main focus now.

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    1. Thanks Desiree - no worries. I came in dead last for my first race many years ago. It was so bad, I could hear the pace car overheating behind me. LOL

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  3. Oh and that is FANTASTIC news!!!!!!!!!!!

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  4. YAY no diabetes!! Fabulous news. I am pretty slow if that makes your feel better and by pretty slow i mean really slow. Im just starting out so im walking but i walk at 3pmh and i feel like im jogging my legs are so short. i can only "run" at 4mph for a less then 30 seconds.

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    1. That is how I started last year. I "ran" at 3.5 and walked at 3.0 - I did the entire couch to 5k like that. I am going to try to do the program with the running at 5.5 instead of the 6 and see if that makes a difference. I just can't do it at 6. :-/

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