-Cause today has been a ROLLER COASTER! I have not felt this dizzy since I rode the super duper looper at Hershey Park when I was in high school!
As I declared yesterday, I am going to run in a 5k on April 1st. Problem is, I'm broke. Flat broke. Completely broke. My bank account has flat lined. I have to have $17 turned in by Friday (mailed out by Thursday at the latest, but tomorrow would be best). I decided I would go and give blood plasma, then I would get enough money to cover my race as well as some gas money to boot! I have never done this before, so I had to go through a VERY long physical. I finally got the okay to give, so I went and sat in the waiting room for another hour - mind you I had already been there for two hours. I FINALLY was called back and I asked the guy bringing me "by the way, is it OK to do this if you're nursing?". I was kind of surprised they didn't ask at the physical, so I figured it was OK. I just wanted to be sure, because they end up giving you an anticoagulant. The man looked me in the eye and said NO. I almost cried in his face. First of all, I am DEATHLY afraid of needles. (just goes to show how badly I wanted to run this race). My anxiety was up the entire time I was at this place. When they called me back my heart started racing even faster! Then when he told me no, it stopped. lol OK, so maybe it didn't stop - but I felt like I got slapped in the face. I moped back to the car and I cried for a little while. I don't know how or even IF I can pull this off. Tomorrow when my son is at school I am going to dig in the couch and go through all the junk drawers. Who knows, maybe I will find $17 in change. Ugh, OK- so I'm still really down about the race.
Time for a few of the clickety clacks (you know, going up??) First, at the physical today my resting heart rate (even though I was in a mild panic just thinking of the prospect of a needle in my arm) was 62!!!! My blood pressure was 124/72!! ROCK ON!! Some more of those invisible accomplishments! CLICKETY CLACK! Second, I was getting ready to go run and I thought - hmmm, I wonder if I can fit into one of my sports bras. I have not been able to wear one in YEARS! I have a couple of fairly expensive ones, but they have just been too small. I tried it on and it FIT PERFECTLY!! YAY! Here is to more running and less bouncing! CLICKETY CLACK! Third, today was my first C25K day in week 2. A lot more running! I had been pretty worried about it - even before I finished week one actually! HAHA Well, I just finished it and it was nowhere NEAR as hard as I thought it would be! CLICKETY CLACK! Lastly, when I got home from the gym (about 40 minutes ago), I hopped on the scale (naked of course LOL) and I saw a 265!!! HOLY FRIGGIN MACKEREL! Now, bear with me, I'm SURE the scale at Weight Watchers will show 269 because their scale is always 2 - 4 lbs heavier than mine. Of course, I'm never naked at Weight Watchers. WOW, I think they might kick me out if I started stripping down for my weigh in! HAHA CLICKETY CLACK!
So as I head to bed, I am at the top of the roller coaster! I'm going to try like MAD to come up with the money for the race. I'm sure I will go crashing down into another low sometime tomorrow. As emotionally draining as this all can be, I suddenly had a funny thought. Didn't I used to love roller coasters? Yeah I did! Time to put on my big girl panties - you must be this tall to ride this ride!!
Thanks for reading!! -Monica