You must be this tall to ride this ride....

     -Cause today has been a ROLLER COASTER!  I have not felt this dizzy since I rode the super duper looper at Hershey Park when I was in high school! 

     As I declared yesterday, I am going to run in a 5k on April 1st.  Problem is, I'm broke.  Flat broke.  Completely broke.  My bank account has flat lined.  I have to have $17 turned in by Friday (mailed out by Thursday at the latest, but tomorrow would be best).  I decided I would go and give blood plasma, then I would get enough money to cover my race as well as some gas money to boot!  I have never done this before, so I had to go through a VERY long physical.  I finally got the okay to give, so I went and sat in the waiting room for another hour - mind you I had already been there for two hours.  I FINALLY was called back and I asked the guy bringing me "by the way, is it OK to do this if you're nursing?".  I was kind of surprised they didn't ask at the physical, so I figured it was OK.  I just wanted to be sure, because they end up giving you an anticoagulant.  The man looked me in the eye and said NO.  I almost cried in his face.  First of all, I am DEATHLY afraid of needles.  (just goes to show how badly I wanted to run this race).  My anxiety was up the entire time I was at this place.  When they called me back my heart started racing even faster!  Then when he told me no, it stopped. lol OK, so maybe it didn't stop - but I felt like I got slapped in the face.  I moped back to the car and I cried for a little while.  I don't know how or even IF I can pull this off.  Tomorrow when my son is at school I am going to dig in the couch and go through all the junk drawers.  Who knows, maybe I will find $17 in change.  Ugh, OK- so I'm still really down about the race.

     Time for a few of the clickety clacks (you know, going up??)  First, at the physical today my resting heart rate (even though I was in a mild panic just thinking of the prospect of a needle in my arm) was 62!!!!   My blood pressure was 124/72!!  ROCK ON!!  Some more of those invisible accomplishments!  CLICKETY CLACK!  Second, I was getting ready to go run and I thought - hmmm, I wonder if I can fit into one of my sports bras.  I have not been able to wear one in YEARS!  I have a couple of fairly expensive ones, but they have just been too small.  I tried it on and it FIT PERFECTLY!!  YAY!  Here is to more running and less bouncing! CLICKETY CLACK!  Third, today was my first C25K day in week 2.  A lot more running!  I had been pretty worried about it - even before I finished week one actually! HAHA  Well, I just finished it and it was nowhere NEAR as hard as I thought it would be!  CLICKETY CLACK!  Lastly, when I got home from the gym (about 40 minutes ago), I hopped on the scale (naked of course LOL) and I saw a 265!!!  HOLY FRIGGIN MACKEREL!  Now, bear with me, I'm SURE the scale at Weight Watchers will show 269 because their scale is always 2 - 4 lbs heavier than mine.  Of course, I'm never naked at Weight Watchers. WOW, I think they might kick me out if I started stripping down for my weigh in! HAHA  CLICKETY CLACK!

     So as I head to bed, I am at the top of the roller coaster!  I'm going to try like MAD to come up with the money for the race.  I'm sure I will go crashing down into another low sometime tomorrow.  As emotionally draining as this all can be, I suddenly had a funny thought.  Didn't I used to love roller coasters?  Yeah I did!  Time to put on my big girl panties - you must be this tall to ride this ride!!

Thanks for reading!! -Monica